Yeah, yeah, yeah its an update...when u've recovered u can read on if u wish lol.  No but really thanks for checking up on me:D.  So i don't use this much but that is because of a characteristic of mine that is all to common to Jenna.  Basically it goes like this...when i'm thinking a lot and life is uncertain i don't talk a lot.  I dont engage in conversation, and I don't exist to the outside world for the most part.  When i get somthing figured out I talk about it.  But only after I'm very certain of what I say.  So what have i figured out.  Tonight I've realized that I've slipped further and further away from God than i realized.  But all the while he has been keeping me close to him and teaching me lessons along the way as ne amazing father will do.  It has by no means been an intentional slippage but a slow and gradual one which is by far more dangerous.  Tonight marks the night that i say no more slipping.  I miss my father.  I miss the close relationship we had.  I miss the peace and excitement.  How do those go coincide? they do trust me:).  Tonight is also a night like several nights past that I've just been very grateful for the joy God has brought into my life.  I love how this week has had some of the most hot and humid days I can remember, and how i've had the pleasure of working on a runway in all of them.  But i also love how we had a storm tonight and tomorrow looks to be a very beautiful day, low heat, low humidity, and lots of sunshine!  Its late so i can't go into details about all of these things but I'll leave u with my cheasy but true thought of the night learned from the weather.  Sometimes we go through times in our life that feel like hot and humid days.  They are full of hard work, and even easy tasks become arduous (difficult).  They drag on and on and on with little let up.  You feel lethargic, miserable and uncomfortable.  But then a storm comes and although it can be seen as a inconvienance or just another part of a bad week.  It is actually the very thing that was sent to clear up your life and bring about a time of refreshment and enjoyment.  (and in my opinion the storm itself is a blessing to watch and feel) I love storms.  apply spiritually :D Shalom

Well, I'm curious to know how many of you figured out that the last entry was not mine but actually jenna lol.  Life has been good, interesting, and as always busy...i wish.  It has actually been pretty slow and a job would be nice but I just got back from New Orleans and it was an amazing experience.  I'm not going to talk about it much on here because there is just to much to say about it.  I will put some pictures up though so that you can see some of them.  Overall, anyone who is able to go down there should to help.  There is still an amazing amount of work to be done and the city isn't even close to being able to get everything torn down and demolished.  Let alone rebuilt.  A lot has gone on since i last updated but most of you already know because you have talked to me:)   For those who havent' well....you'll just have to call.  I say that with some hypocrisy knowing I haven't called a lot of people:).  No real reason, I've just been in my own little world for a while....ok welp jenna just came and its time to eat so i'll put pics up later today prolly Shalom

So I thought that it was time for an update. I have become a master of the snowboard the last few months! Man, I wish that I could go again at least one more time before this season is over. Next week I am going to New Orleans on a missions trip with the school. I am really excited about it. I got to blow some stuff up this week end and it was amazing! I have never seen such an explosion, and it sounded awesome! I am going to dinner tonight and i hope that it doesnt suck...but there is this really cool person that serves dinner and so thats cool. Well i cant really thik of any thing else so i am going to go take a nap. Shalom.

so this is life

striving against the grain

welcoming the pain

praying for strength to get through

hoping to God that I do

Loving because you do

Loving because it's the thing to do

Loving because it's what i do